Have you ever had the feeling that you have one foot in the grave, and the other one on a banana skin?
the reason I ask is because there have been times in my life when I have had just that sensation. Most of my early life I was quite a healthy sort of bloke. I have had the odd trip to the hospital. Usually because I have done something stupid. Like tripping over the dogs lead with a milk bottle in my hand. The doctors had a great time digging a piece of glass out of my leg. Apart from idiotic tricks like that. I was fairly healthy.
I think the troubles began as I got older. As they usually do. A few years ago, I was diagnosed as having prostate cancer. I had what I suppose was the usual kind of treatment. Radio therapy and a series of injections. That was O.K. the problem was that I went through a period of very deep depression.
I hope I am not boring you with some sort of sob story. The fact is, that I wish to tell you how good my Heavenly Father is. Just because I am a Christian, that does not mean that I can expect to escape from the daily troubles and pains that people go through. I am a reader in the Church of England. That means I preach. I lead worship and visit people who are housebound. This is part of my duty, and privilege as a reader. The point is that, in spite of the cancer and the depression, My Heavenly Father has seen me through them. With the help and prayers of my wife and the good friends He has given me. And His spirit that helps me I was still given the grace and great privlege to carry on preaching and leading worship.
As you know I nave done some pretty daft things in my time. Some of the daftest are some of the posts I have written. I am quite embarrassed by them. A bit of editing might be in order. The thing is, that in spite of my errors. He is patient and kind. He will see me through these things.
I do not wish to burden you with sobs stories. I am not asking for sympathy. This is not about me, But about my Heavenky Fathers love. For example, this last year has been a bit of a problem. I have emphesemea. This means that you have to be careful about your lungs. So, just for fun I caught a nasty little lung infection. To add to the fun I had developed cateracts in both my eyes. So things were getting more and more difficult to see. On a lighter note. It was Christmas, and I was in church. The trouble was our church is quite dark. We need to get the lighting seen to. anyway, I was standing at one end of the church, and I could see these little red and silver lights. As I looked. They started to come towards me. As they came closer a friend of mine appeared. She was wearing a Christmassy jumper with a Christmas scene made of red and silver sequins. Just for a moment, I thought I had lost the plot.
I am happy to to say that I had operations to remove the cataracts. Unfortunately I have macular degeneration. It is really strange. I can now see distance, but I cannot see close up. It is odd because I can see the computer screen fairly well. Especially if I up the font. The trouble is I cannot see the keyboard. I need to get a magnifier. So if you see the odd letter out of place and the grammar is not as grammatical as it should be. I apologise.
The joy that I have found is that in spite of all that happens. My heavenly Father still continues to encourage me. He allows me the privilege of preaching and leading worship.
and. of course, visiting my lovely housebound friends.
And the banana? Well, if I do slip. Thanks to a God who loves me. I know where I am going.
Anyway, thanks for the chat. See you around.